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do you guys sometimes have it? a song that holds part of your life? a song that you hear and automatically see the surroundings, see the past? i do. there are some songs i was listening to long time ago, years ago. and when i now play them i have tears in my eyes. it all comes back, the imagery of everything around me from when i was listening to it. it's such a wonderful thing, like a keeper, like a diary. i can smell the rainy summer, the fresh grass, i can see the night outside my window, the full moon, the calmness of everything at 3am... what was then? probably closterkeller. "violette"... oh god, oh god, hold my heart tightly for it'll break. this song, amazing song, was around me when i was drawing on my bed, when i was still friends with ruda, when i was still buying kawaii, when it was summer, when the sunset slipped through the window to my room, when i was young and everything was sparkling, fascinating and i was almighty. awesome, awesome. i see, feel, hear it all. it's like a timemachine. amorphis "alone". why am i so sensitive? why do i cry for god's sake? this song is from my cassette, same one where katatonia "passing bird" and opeth "the drapery falls" are. epic compilation. one of my first trips to warsaw, from junior high. i was sitting with angelika. it was night, we were going back, 12am. darkness everywhere, the feeling of going somewhere, moving, exploring. it's something indescribable that blooms in your heart, that allows me to sit hours at the bus and watch landscapes change. and back then, i was feeling all this accompanied by "alone" which now is in my hands again. so long.
at time like that i wonder... am i a realist or romanticist?
btw. OMG!!!!!! up until now my internet was crap. my maximum speed was 60kb/s but since i hate changing providers i let it go. suddenly today, my speed is above 3ookb/s o__O at the same time i get the notices i didn't pay, lol. i'll, after easter (hopefully). so i downloaded bunch of useless junk just to look at the awesome transfer XD oh gosh, either it's a sign of cutting down to 3kb/s or cutting me off completely. cuz i can't believe in such miracles ;__;
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