Current mood:	sore
Entry tags:	books

[books.]
being sick to death with rewriting and going over literature notes (wtf, previous semester took like, four A4 pages, now i have eight and i'm still NOT finished), whatever. i think i'll just fail monday's german culture test and take it in september. hey, i need to have at least one serious retake, lol. my "smart student" image is slowly getting to me. so, shut up ambition, remember you're LAZY.

as for literature... i love it. i was worried that studying english would cut me off from literature but hell, it's the opposite. i'm lucky enough to be "forced" to read british literature ♥ it's just like back at junior high and high school: i HAD to read some books and i'm glad i did. normally i wouldn't even touch them and now that i know how great they are it'd be a pity. "high" literature is high. i want to be forced more. need not to worry, i have no friends and no life so i can indulge myself in books the whole summer.

BOOKS I LIKED DURING THIS SEMESTER (i think all, lol):
1. great expectations, charles dickens - i can't remember if i had read any of his book before this one but i'm definitely trying it out. it was nice. the style wasn't so hard, neither the language (though later books are easier), i liked pip's struggle and my growing hatred for him. nice portrait of society and importance of "classes".
2. wuthering heights, emily bronte - absolute love!!!!! omg, it was fantastic. everything i like the most: gothic convection, madness, toxic love, betrayal mixed with happiness, lies, despair... it's WONDERFUL.
3. tess of d'urbervilles, thomas hardy - well... i don't really know. i couldn't stop reading but yet it was pissing me off. tess... well, main heroine deserved EVERYTHING since she was so stupid... ARGH. i know, convention of times but still, she had different women around her. so what if whores. so tess is awful ut the book itself is really nice. kind of like ancient tragedy in prose. and whatever, i liked alex~
4. the portrait of dorian grey, oscar wilde - AHH! one of the motif for it is "homoerotic male relationships" so go figure XD but really, there's nothing but tons of suggestive suggestions (hanged only when the book was published, in magazine installments wilde had even that removed...). and a really wonderful story. DECADENCE!!! HEDONISM!!! completely art for beauty and lack of morality. too bad i felt sorry for basil and couldn't enjoy it THAT much but lord henry, oh lord henry... you're like goethe's mephistopheles! like milton's lucifer! you're the embodiment of seductive evil. MUST READ.
5. brave new world, aldous huxley - i barely remember to eat while reading it. it sucked me up. wo would have thought that i'd meet one of my fav genres on obligatory reading list? it's dystopia, one hell of great dystopia. has everything; "utopian" world, characters against it and two perspectives. awesome, the ending is hard to judge too, characters are ambiguous and, how scary, during our lessons i couldn't answer the question "so what is worse: lack of freedom but happiness or freedom and pain?". somehow, after this book and mustafa's arguments... it wasn't that obvious anymore. wilde was right, art has very dangerous influence on us...

i want to read MORE. i'm going to gather reading list for summer... any suggestions?

/doesn't really proofread note and crashes