[noWILLstate.]
i broke down, after 16 days. well, i haven't smoked and i hope i won't give in even to... just one. one per 16 days, why not. no, i can't. i've had no problems till now, what happened? FUCK IT. it makes me cry. and it's not even smoking per se but the future restrictions. fucking SM. my stupidity has always told me that smoking is cool, it fits strong people and it's fucking sexy. well, it is. no, it LOOKS sexy. i want to smoke.
*breakdown*
putting smoking aside, why the fuck should i care about anything? cutting food and losing weight? what for? for computer? trying to keep fit but why? i'm a wreck anyway. i just... i'm not sure. shhh, SHH myself, just SHHH.
...and i wanted to write a happy note about some random shit. guess that's tomorrow.
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firelle) wrote,
stressed
