Elenuvien Firelle ([info]firelle) wrote,
@ 2009-06-24 01:04:00
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Current mood: gloomy
Entry tags:friends, mind

i've always been jealous for my friends: they have pals to hang out with, they love and are loved, they're liked and not as screwed up as me. but at the same time i've always truly wished for them to be happy, i wanted them to find happiness, it was sincere feeling. somewhere, under all jealousy, i felt that they should be at least the only ones to be successful. so... why aren't they? why do we ALL mess up?


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[info]loki_niflheim
2009-06-24 07:52 am UTC (link)
*hugs*

Because we can't control what other people do and we don't always know why we do the things we do.

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[info]firelle
2009-06-24 02:09 pm UTC (link)
*hugs back*

yeah, but i've had that twisted thought that if i'm that unlucky and useless on some fields, then rest of them should be alright since the stock of "unhappiness" run out on me.

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[info]loki_niflheim
2009-06-25 07:11 am UTC (link)
LoL. Kinda like 'it can't get any worse than...'

It's more or less what I think as well, you know, you can only get so bad at some thing that you're going to be so good at another (being at bad at things XD).

You're almost graduating *sigh* my baby's all grown up... so surely you're good at something, not that uni is a full measure of who and what you are...

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[info]firelle
2009-06-26 08:04 am UTC (link)
i have a self-made poster on my door "it's never as bad so that it couldn't get worse" which makes people think hard: positive or negative? i wrote it as something negative but then thought and realised it's not: it can still get worse = it's not the worst = so we should be somehow happy XD

yeah, that's my excuse for maaaaany things XD;

in a year, hopefully, i'll be bachelor, still have two years left for master. i am bad at social relations and that is something i want to be good at.

how are you, loki? happy? healthy? how's your house?~ *hugs*

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[info]loki_niflheim
2009-06-26 08:27 am UTC (link)
I usually just think, if I'm in a bad situation, someone somewhere is in a worse situation so I should suck it up and move on.

You're doing master? I think it would be better to work first before going for master, but I don't know how things are in your country. I suck at social relations and one day I'll improve somehow. They have these 'effective communication' classes in the city but I'm not sure I want to spend $300 for it -.- I'm so stingy. What do you think you'll do?

I'm O.K. My mother is now living with me, which is a whole set of its own problems, but you know... I'm still alive :P

I'm still renting, housing is very expensive over here so I don't know when I'll get around to buying one. Very busy at work since economy is not doing very well, so they laid off some people and got the people who are still working to do their jobs, so... flat out >.

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