i don't have anything to do on this computer. i lost shitload of anime movies yet i'm unaffected. my love for manga & anime isn't as crazy as before. it's all scary. seriously, when i think i might get bored of this stuff i'm terrified. i can't, no way. NO WAY. i want to be buried with manga in my hands.

ro changed. i had to install it with kRO not sakray and maybe because of that it's more smooth. but they ruined amatsu, whyyy. and also there are new mobs and some event going on. and where are the numbers from mvp & pvp fields? hm. ro is still fun. but only sometimes.

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my head is spinning, i'm sleepy and my sight is blurry. i'm going to start complaining about my health. yeah. why not.

i'm on a house m.d. roll. i LOVE it and it's not just house, i love them all. especially chase who's so.. so disgusting. but i love it. like with draco malfoy. thankfully i don't see any slash there although house and wilson's relationship is awesome. it's what i like probably more than slash - deep friendship between men. and i have it here ♥ anyway, house loses something when 3rd season ends and the team breaks but it's still very good. it's just that nothing can beat chase, cameron and forman together. nothing. house liked them all so much. it was cute. his awkwardness is adorable.

my life is as nijaki and boring as ever. i'm not wasting my time thinking about it. i busy worrying about my health and money. both which i don't have.

it'll take me a MONTH to sort all this damn stuff. i download TOO MUCH. why can't i delete. WHYYYYY.

ALSO..! yoneda kou's art is pretty simple. straight lines, nothing close to perfection and "overloading the panel". she knows exactly what to put and where. her semi-minimalistic art is just what i love. but, the best thing about her (aside from uber-awesome stories) is her characters' expressions. i don't know how she does it with just a few lines and some grey tones but even without context or text i could tell right away what a character is feeling. she catches it perfectly - humans' expressions - and can convey them to the readers without some flashy and shitty details and almost-like-real art. she doesn't need it. her 3 straight lines can tell more than abe miyuki's panels full of every fucking single detail (no offense, i love abe). yoneda kou is my current unquestionable guru. i wish i could force whole yaoi community to read her works.

not that anyone cares anyway but...


going to play ro some more, for about a week. so, duh. DUH, DUH, DUH.

I NEED TO CHANGE THIS GODDAMNED LAYOUT BUT JESUS WHEN I NEED TO LEVEL AND TRANSLATE AND BE LAZY WHAT TO DOOOO

so i probably finished my 2nd year at university. probably because i'm waiting for one exam's results. but sice i'm trying to be positive i'm calling myself a THIRD YEAR STUDENT. third = last. well, last for bachelor's degree and master is something totally different, it's too early to think about it. when did it all pass? it seems like it was yesterday when i was standing in front of the classroom, surrounded by the people whom i didn't know. and now i'm just 2 steps from graduating. after summer's over i'll be deciding on my promoter, thesis topic... and before i blink it'll be the time for defending and deciding what next. work and evening master studies or normal, daily studies and no work? i wish i could take both options. we'll see, we'll see. the closer my real "adult" life the more conscious about time i become. and i don't like it.

not going anywhere this summer, i'm too unsure about my health. and besides, i cut off contacts with everyone. both me and them were tired by the fruitless efforts. it's not the end of the world, i'll restart sometime. it's just that with SM my life took a change to which i wasn't prepared. the kind of friends i've got, image of free time i had, everything is gone and needs to be restarted. no parties, no wildness. at least until i sort out what's wrong with me and how far i can go with anything. just a week more and i'll go to see the doc and, HOPEFULLY, will know more. my parents want to go with me. can they understand that they'd be nothing but annoyance? sorry, i don't feel close with you, sorry.

good thing: I QUIT SMOKING. good for my health bad for my tastes since i find smoking absolutely cool and sexy. whatever. it LOOKS cool but it SMELLS horrible and leaves DISGUSTING aftertaste. but i'm all about looks so i want to smoke. but cannot - i tried, got some strong anti-reaction. it was so easy. TOO easy. just like that and i stopped. wow?

ro, ro, roooooo. oh, siguś (perfectassassin), i THANK YOU and CURSE YOU. it's awesome. but, noone should begin as a swordsman class, there are a lot of cheaper, easier and less frustrating out there. gaaah, i dunno WHAT to do with my LK, how on earth ppl hit 14k??? grrr.

( Ragnarok Online is a VERY SERIOUS disease: picspasm - HEAVY )

* so, liek, i'm WTFing at myself (WTFing... english is such a wonderful language <3<3). i think i'll WTF the whole summer.

* when talking to someone i'v known for sooo looog i'm awkward. how stupid can i get?

* ps. i'm gonna go and whore myself in order to have money for japanese yaoi magazines forgetting the fact that i have no idea where to be a whore. i now what they do but... should i sign up somewhere? how? *dork* i'm in pains because i WANT mangas' serialisations NOW but they're only available in mags and mags are so hard to get. so i'm gonna do it! buahahahaha, fear me, you lustful men *idiot*

* can't stop playing RO. CAN'T. is there anyone, besides me, who shipped random players? i found gays. i swear they are. THEY MUST BE.

unable to do anything but play RO. this game is... bad. VERY BAD.

*goes to level on wolves*